Life is just a state of Mind

Have you ever felt emotional break-down in your life? If yes, you know the pain of it, if not, then be prepared for it, because it is just like aging, you can't avoid it. I spent my entire life in lucknow and knew every nook and corner of the town. I was so well versed with the city that I could walk the town by keeping my eyes closed and could still avoid all the potholes that were scattered all over in the city (sounds like hyperbola? Ignore then...:-)). It was all hunky dowry until I had to fly down to Bangalore to pursue my higher education (yup you guessed it right, to do my so called MBA, that gives me a certificate that i can sell anything irrespective of the fact how bad or good it is). That was the first time, when I was on the verge of my emotional breakdown, leaving my comfort zone and travelling to a city that is alien to me wasn't easy. Like a good MBA aspirant, I quickly did a swot analysis in order to challenge the decision of moving to Bangalore but had to shed my stubbornness in front of my parents' wish.  

It wasn't easy to leave your childhood buddies behind thinking that you will come back as soon as course is over, wasn't easy to bid adieu to the play ground, which had seen your worst defeats and the best victories, wasn't easy to board the train alone and seeing your home town going out of sight while you are moving to a place where at times it is going to be a struggle to read what is written on the board due to language barrier. I won't mention the home food and luxury because that goes without saying. Take it as a confession but even a hardened heart would melt for a while and eyes would get misty howsoever hard one tries to be strong and I was no exception. There was something that was wrecking my heart and choking my throat but my pseudo male ego didn't allow me to cry. 

I landed in Bangalore with a kind of mixed feeling of dilemma and excitement, but in no time fell in love with this city. Bangalore is rich in terms of weather, lovely people, an infrastructure that can't be qualified as the best but of course better than many cities in India. I was in a spree of making friends. I have spent more than 5 years today in the same city, I never wanted to come at the first place or wanted to run away from in my initial days. I have friends in every street of Bangalore who are always there to bail me out, if I get stuck anywhere. Life was so good and I was happy in my comfort zone that has built around over the span of 5 odd years but life doesn't give smooth ride to anyone. History repeats itself, one fine day my company got acquired and the new management wants me to relocate to Mumbai, a city, I am familiar with but still an alien on a larger perspective. Life has again shaken me from my slumber and have put me back on the same train that I boarded many years ago. 

I was in a indecisive mode because of this sudden arrival of a high tide that has destabilized my stand and was not able to figure out how to react over this. There is an old dictum that says, if you don't find answers to your questions in today, try to find it out in past and I flipped through the pages of my life just to realize that it is just a state of mind. Mind is the fastest carrier of nostalgia and quickly plays the entire script of unforgettable moments that are associated with the place or person going to be left behind. It was the same state of mind years back, when I was leaving my home town and it is the same state of mind today. Human emotions are something that makes us to stand out of all the creatures living on the planet earth and it is an uphill task to fight against emotions but then happiness lie right underneath it. My parents have spent their life in the same town. They know India is great but they are less aware of the fact, what makes it great. Almighty wants me learn that to explain this to my parents someday. I was born in northern part of this country, have spent some beautiful years in down south and now relocating to western part of it. May be someday, I will get a chance to travel to eastern part of it and serve a small tenure there too and then one day, I would proudly say that I have been to every highway of my country and can explain you what it means to be born in this country.  

Trying to collect and putting myself together for a long journey ahead from 20 odd days down the line. This time, it is much more different though. I am not facing the callous uproar of my heart this time, on the contrary, I am feeling a soothing calmness around, more focused, more prepared, and of course in much better state of mind.